Thursday, May 31, 2007

New Shoes??

Still on dancing, I want to buy these shoes for my next pair:




















Don't they just look awesome??!? :D (even just the one shoe without its other half looks stunning LOL)

A Quote

I found this quote on a dancing website, which rings very true to me:

"I will say that since I have got the dancing bug there is no stopping me from going dancing whenever I want to. It's like escaping from everyday life and letting all worries and cares just disintegrate into the air the moment I am on the dance floor. I definitely come alive! It is freedom, it is expression and in a really great dance it is the connection with another soul, where every move seems to flow. I am there for the pure joy I get out of dancing."

It is amazing just how powerful dancing can be. I guess as with other sports, you can really immerse yourself entirely in to dancing and lose track of time, and forget your problems in your non-dancing life. I love being on the dancefloor, I stop being self-conscious and just totally focus on my dancing. It is like a completely different me out there. :)

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Progress Update

1. ONLINE APPLICATION FORM

I submitted my online application form (and forked over my $70, ugh). I listed my preferences as I had said in my previous entries:
1. USyd
2. UND(Sydney)
3. None

Although now I'm starting to regret it and I'm thinking that maybe I should have put UND(S) first, since it is the only university that I really want to go to anyway!!

Preference #1 will be rejected anyway, but still, putting UND(S) first would probably have increased my chance at an interview.

Oh well. It's done now. All I can hope for now is an interview place at either uni!

2. ONLINE GPA FORM

I've also filled in the online GPA form, but still yet have to finalise it. I'm still unsure about how my GPA will be scored, I have a few things that I think are a little out of the ordinary:

- My course was originally a four and a half year degree, but I extended it to five. I was never officially part-time, but my total units in each of the last four semesters were not the maximum units for a full-time load. So how do I group my subjects? Where do I draw the line as to which subjects to include and which to exclude from the GPA calculation?

- I did a combined degree, and almost all my subjects in the last three years were 2nd and 3rd academic year levels. How does that work for the Weighted GPA? Or does it not matter? Probably not. But what would happen if I didn't take any 1st academic year subjects during the last three years of my degree? Would they then just give me a GPA1 of 0?

- In addition to my transcript, I might have to give ACER photocopies from my old handbooks (my first one was from the mid-90s, I can't believe I still had them!) . Some of the subjects that I took are no longer offered (or are now under a different name) so any additional information sent to them will make their jobs that much easier, and hopefully that will mean less error in their final GPA calculation for me. (OMG, I went to uni before the internet was even born. That's insane!)

3. PERSONAL STATEMENT FOR UND(S)

I still haven't had the chance to work on my Personal Statement since last weekend! Tsk tsk! I might work on it now... I don't want to have to leave it until the last minute, and not have the time to re-work it, which it will undoubtedly need.

When will this process end....

** Sigh **

A Real-Life Medium?

I have recently found out that one of my friends, Dotti, could possibly be a real life Alison Dubois, the lead character in the TV show Medium. I don't normally believe in that sort of thing, but when she rattled off all these different scenarios where she seemed to have 'influenced' or predicted what was going to happen, it sounded like it just happened way too often for it to all be mere coincidences.

She denies it all of course, but I think deep down she thinks it may actually all be true, and probably uses her denial as her form of protection from it. Which I can completely understand. If you knew - or even had an inkling - that bad things were going to happen to people you know and loved or cared for, you're not going to want to have that sort of responsibility hanging over you. Good things are of course nice, but it's the bad events that will haunt you.

So yeah, they're all coincidences Dotti. :)

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Preferences

I've decided on my preferences:

1. USyd
2. UND(Sydney)
3. None

I have pretty much Buckley's chance of getting in to my first preference, but as I've mentioned in previous entrries, I don't really know if I want to go there anyway. It feels like it's only there for the prestige factor of going to that university.

I really want to go to Preference #2. My gut instinct tells me that I would really enjoy my time at UND(Sydney). I'm currently in the middle of writing my Personal Statement for my application to this university. But because of my mediocre GAMSAT and GPA scores, I'm pretty much preparing myself for the worst...

And since I'm not willing to relocate (or travel too far, as is the case for UWoll), I've left Preference #3 blank.

I've also decided that I will sit the UMAT (have I already mentioned this in an earlier entry?). I wouldn't mind going to UWS either, that would actually be my third preference if it was a graduate-entry course. But the guys on Pagingdr have mentioned that entry via this alternative route is tougher than it seems, so again, I'm not expecting too much.... :(

Am I being too pessimistic? Or is this really an accurate depiction of my chances??

Tea at Ten

A few weeks ago, M&2S made her blog private. :( I can understand why she's done that, but it's still sad to hear that her blog will no longer be available to the general public. Thank you to Tea at Ten for allowing me to enter your blog space over the past few months. You were one of the people who inspired me to create a blog of my own. :)

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Lunch

I organised lunch for next weekend with a few of my girlfriends. I don't see them as often as I like anymore, I guess that's what happens when you get older. :( So a get-together is worth an entry these days! LOL

Oh, lunch is with CC and Prada and their respective partners. Prada I haven't yet mentioned. I'm not as close to her as I am with CC, DKNY and YSL. But she's still a great friend to have around, and I've known her for almost as long as the other 3.

I'm looking forward to the lunch already! :)

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

UND (Sydney)

I went to the information session held tonight at UND Sydney. It was very informative, and am now more than ever very keen to go there! The Dean of Medicine herself gave the talk, and she came across as a smart yet very down-to-earth person, which I really admired.

I love the fact that it's a small uni (I'm assuming the Darlinghurst campus will be similar in size to the Broadway one where the session was held tonight), and that the staff and teachers can pay individual attention to its students. Plus, because the cohort will be smaller in number, no doubt the camaradie will be much stronger at this uni, which I believe will be very important for a demanding course such as medicine.

They place a lot of emphasis on practical experience, and during the clinical years each student is essentially taken under the wing of Dr X, and you follow them around for the duration of your placement. So you end up seeing Dr X's patients right through from beginning to end - you see first-hand this "continuity of care".

One downside to this uni though (for me) is the fact that there is the chance that you will be placed outside of metropolitan Sydney for Years 3 and 4. The Dean mentioned that half the students will be placed in Sydney, but that still means the other half will be placed outside of Sydney. I don't want to be away from B (and my own home) for such a long period of time. It would be a little different if I was still in my early 20s, still living at home or renting. But I'm not, and I'm pretty much established in my personal life. I wonder how flexible the uni would be with personal attachments like this....

But overall, it was a very promising talk and I'm very glad I went! :)

Friday, May 18, 2007

Fading Hopes

I'm once again fervently reading pagingdr whenever I can, after successfully fighting my obsession with the site about 4-6 weeks ago. Now I can't get enough info on all things to do with 2008 medical student places at Sydney universities.

But of course pagingdr is comprised of numerous other threads. And it is in these other threads where I have slowly (ok, maybe not that slowly LOL) come to the realisation that my Overall GAMSAT Score is probably not going to be as competititve this year as I would have liked.

So now my thoughts are currently revolving around the following themes (in no particular order or frequency):

- I probably won't even get a chance at an interview at USyd. Should I drop them down to 2nd preference then?

- Do I even WANT to go to USyd? Even before the results came out, I was already leaning towards UND(S), as I felt my own values and preferred learning structure/environment sounds like it will be more synonymous with this uni (based on the information that the uni has on its website). To be honest, I feel that I am only applying to USyd because of its well-established name.

- But UND(S) is brand spanking new. No one has even heard of the university. Although is this even going to really matter in a few years??

- There are soooo many applicants this year; no doubt a vast majority of them in Sydney. Simply only because it's the largest city in the country. What chance do I have at an interview, based on my mediocre Score??

- Should I continue putting in the time and effort (and $$!) in to my current career, if I am absolutely determined to get in to medicine?

- I'm pretty sure I'm going to sit the UMAT in July this year, so I will at least have the option to go to UWS. (Or UNSW I guess, but I doubt I want to go there for 6 years. I'm no spring chicken and time is slowly becoming a more and more valuable asset to me...! LOL)

- Do I really want to put all this energy in to all of this??!?

My initial happy feelings from yesterday's results is slowly withering away... :(

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Official GAMSAT Results for 2007

Section I - 58
Section II - 60
Section III - 58
Overall - 58

Initial thoughts on reading my marks:

Section I: What?! That's pathetic! I expected a much better mark than that!

Section II: What?! 60?? I thought I wrote pretty good essays, I was expecting low to mid-60s at the very least!

Section III: What the?!? 58??!? WOOOOOHOOOOOO! I passed the Science section!!!! :D

So basically, my expectations were totally way off mark. But I'm pretty happy with my results, given that it was the first time that I'd ever sat this exam.

My overall mark isn't crash hot, my percentile ranking was roughly around the 55% mark. Pretty average, really. So I'm not sure if I'll score an interview. I'm almost positive I won't be asked to come in to interview at USyd (my 1st preference), so hopefully my 2nd preference will take me in (University of Notre Dame Sydney). I'll still apply to both, despite my so-so GAMSAT results. I've gotta be in it to win it, right?! :)

So I guess we'll have to wait and see what transpires over the coming few months. Hmmmmm... Now one wait is over, and the next one starts.

The others

I'm looking at other people's results that they've posted up in pagingdr, and everyone's done so well! What chance do I have??!!??

Still working up the courage to check.... I'm getting there.... :)

The Results are OUT!!!!

But I'm too nervous to check them!!!! My palms are all sweaty, and I can barely type.... I'm trying to distract myself by doing some actual work, but it ain't helping. :-/ Should I look before or after lunch? I don't think I can eat in my current state. I have to check my results before I can eat anything.

Just thought I'd post an entry now to remind myself of this awful feeling that I'm currently experiencing! LOL I'm feeling so stressed and nervous, in fact, pretty much the same feeling I had right before I walked in to the exam.

**sigh**

**deep breath**

I'll let you know the results as soon as I muster up the courage to look!!

Tick Tock Tick Tock...

I visited pagingdr earlier today, and there was discussion on how Acer had e-mailed everyone advising that the results will be released "later this week". But I haven't been able to check my e-mails in the past few days, nor can I log in to my personal e-mail account at work, so both the wait and the limited access to my e-mails is adding to the stress of it all! ARGH!!

Although I still wonder why I'm stressing so much about it all. It's just one lousy exam, after all. It's not the end of the world if I don't pass / get the required marks. I'll still be the same person as I was before the results came out, the world isn't going to come crashing down around me. I can sit the exam again next year. And besides, I also still have the UMAT option. It won't be the end of the world. :)

But despite this - I'm still freaked out!!! ARGH!!!!

Monday, May 14, 2007

Small World

I ran in to an old work colleague today, someone whom I hadn't worked with in almost 6 years! He was there for a meeting with us (my employer, that is) representing his current company, and he just happened to be walking by my desk when he saw my name tag above my workstation! It was great to see him again. We had a sentimental chat about our old employer and he got me up to speed with the current structure over there, who was was still around and who had moved on.

Our little chat just made me realise that even li'l ol' me can make an impact on someone's life without even knowing it. And never to burn your bridges behind you. You never know when you'll be working with these people again. (Little Boss should take note. Oh wait, I haven't introduced her yet, have I. That'll have to wait until another time.)

Sunday, May 13, 2007

A New Look

I've had this blog for about 3 weeks, and I've changed the look of it already. How fickle am I.

Friday, May 11, 2007

The Wait

I haven't been able to check my e-mails (or write entries in here, for that matter) for a few days, and I was getting rather anxious when I went to check my mail this morning. This wait for my GAMSAT results is loooong, and not a particularly pleasant experience either...!

So is it going to be a daily dose of anxiety each day from now until the day the results actually arrive? And what if the results are bad anyway? All that nervousness and anxiety for nothing? People say the wait for the GAMSAT results is just the beginning: you have the wait to hear whether you scored an interview place, then you have the wait to hear whether you scored a place at your chosen university.

Is it all character building? Well right now, I certainly don't feel like I'm building anything except my anxiety!! LOL

A Mini!

B&I hired a Mini Cooper for two days! A cute orange convertible. We went on day trips up the coast, but surprisingly, the Cooper didn't handle the trip too well. B drove the entire time, and he was saying that the accelerator was a little sluggish, as if the car was a little too heavy for the Mini (hehe, a double entrendre?) engine.

We were travelling up and down winding roads during the two-day hire, and around the tight bends, the tyres were screeching! We weren't even going that fast, but the tyres couldn't handle it anyway.

B also complained about the poor location of the speedometer. He couldn't see the car speed too well, and distracted him from concentrating on the actual driving. Rather dangerous!! And when using the manual (the car was Tiptronic), he also couldn't see clearly the dial showing which gear he was in.

And can you believe it - after only a day, we noticed there was a chip on the windscreen. Already! We hadn't noticed the chip prior to signing the rental agreement, so we're not sure if the chip actually happened during our rental period. But either way, it wasn't on the sign-off inspection sheet that we signed when we drove out of the rental car park, so I guess we'll be slugged for the cost of fixing it. :(

So perhaps the only plus about the car - the fact that it was a convertible! Not much else was going for it, really... 3 out of 10 for me.

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Sunburnt

B&I went to the beach today and now my arms are sunburnt. And I have a t-shirt mark. Ugh! We walked around in the sun for a few hours before we settled on the beach, and I didn't put on any sunscreen until we actually found our spot on the sand. Tsk tsk. Goes to show you should always slip slop slap whenever you're out and about, not just when you're on the beach. Especially so for someone like me who burns after only 5 minutes in the sun! :-/

(I'm lying on the beach feeling the sun's rays penetrating me. And instead of enjoying the warm, relaxing atmosphere on the beach, I'm there thinking: "oh no, the sun's rays are probably contributing to my getting skin cancer. I can almost feel the cells multiplying... Did I put enough sunscreen on? Maybe I should just go sit in the shade to minimise the effects of the sun's damaging rays... But it's too cold in the shade, I need the sun's warmth...". Not a very good mindset to have when you're trying to enjoy your day at the beach!!)

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

TV and Movies

THE NUMBER 23
B & I went to watch The Number 23 with Jim Carrey yesterday. It was a pretty good movie, despite the fact that I spent almost the entire time adding up various names and places to see if anything summed up to 23! Hmmm... I guess that would make more sense if you've seen the movie....! :) I'd like to add up a few names now actually, if you don't mind (I didn't get the chance to do the sums during the movie!)...

Walter Paul Sparrow
= (23 + 1 + 12 + 20 + 5 + 18) + (16 + 1 + 21 + 12) + (19 + 16 + 1 + 18 + 18 + 15 + 23)
= (79) + (50) + (110)
= (7 + 9) + (5 + 0) + (1 + 1 + 0)
= 16 + 5 + 2
= 23

YEAH!! :D (Although expected)

King Edward Hotel
= (11 + 9 + 14 + 7) + (5 + 4 + 23 + 1 + 18 + 4) + (8 + 15 + 20 + 5 + 12)
= (41) + (55) + (60)
= (4 + 1) + (5 + 5) + (6 + 0)
= 5 + 10 + 6
= 21

Awwww... Not 23.... :(

Casanova's Park
= (3 + 1 + 19 + 1 + 14 + 15 + 22 + 1 + 19) + (4 + 1 + 18 + 11)
= 95 + 34
= (9 + 5) + (3 + 4)
= 14 + 7
= 21

Awwww... Not 23 either.... :(

OK, that's enough maths for one day, even for me!


DANCING WITH THE STARS
This year's Dancing With the Stars has been the best season so far. The dancing calibre of this year's celebrities has been absolutely amazing (OK, apart from Farmer Dave... LOL), and the playing field was a lot fairer than in previous years. I'm glad Kate and Fifi were in the Grand Final, they both deserved to be there.

Prior to last night's episode, I actually didn't mind who won the competition. But after watching Fifi's improvement last night, I would have probably preferred her to win the overall competition.

Kate's performance was good, as always, but she seemed to have plateaued, which showed in her dances last night (and in her slightly lower scores, minus the Freestyle). Her Jive was pretty much the same as it was in Week 2 (or whenever she first performed it). It was a great performance, don't get me wrong, and it was probably her best dance all season (hence probably why they chose this particular routine for the Grand Final) but it didn't show any improvement in her technique.

Fifi's repeat performance on the other hand (Salsa) showed a clear improvement in her dancing. She was a lot sexier this time around, a lot more fluid in her movements. And the "Chicken or Beef" didn't look like "Chicken or Beef" at all the second time 'round! :) And her Rumba was very well executed too, a much harder dance than Kate's comparable dance for the Grand Final (Salsa).

But in the end, they both gave it their all, which should be applauded. And it's all for a good cause, which makes it all the more worthwhile. :)

(PS - I love my dancing, can you tell??! LOL)

Self-Doubt

I'm starting to have doubts as to whether I really want to study medicine. My current concerns:

1. I'm the biggest procrastinator. I'm going to have to fight that big time if I'm going to study med. It's a course in which I definitely cannot leave my studying until the final few weeks before the exam.

2. It's a tough course. It sounds like my life is going to consist of only studying and sleeping for months on end. Do I really want to sacrifice all my time in this way?

3. Am I smart enough? I'm going to be surrounded by all these highly intelligent people. Can I even keep up, without having to spend 18 hours a day studying? Or would I have to be studying 18 hours a day anyway, even if I was the smartest person in the course??

4. My age. I'm older now, my ability to absorb new information takes a little longer than it used to.... I may have to study the 18 hours a day anyway just to keep up with the 20-year olds that will be studying with me.... Then there's the other aspect of not being able to practise medicine for as long as some of these kids. Granted, I'll still get 25+ years even if I graduated from uni at 40 years of age. But that still won't stop me from dwelling on my age... :)

5. I'll be a poor uni student again. For four years. And let's face it, it'll be a few years after graduation before I even start making the same amount of money that I do now. This is the financial sacrifice.

6. Lifestyle. Stemming partly from 5., I've grown accustomed to a number of things in my life - the time and money for dance lessons, the time to watch as much tv as I currently do, having discretionary money to buy almost anything that I want... Am I willing to sacrifice all this as well?

7. Is it really the course for me? Would I truly enjoy it as a career? Is my personality suited to medicine?

Or maybe these doubts are only coming out now because I know that the GAMSAT results are going to be released very very shortly, and my goal of obtaining a place as a med student may be that one step closer in just a few weeks, which will turn my life as I currently know it upside down....